well, well, well, well, well...my life is doing a jig with all of my plans. well the wedding didn't go as planned. the groom had to have surgery and it was postponed until next year. now i have two weddings to attend in a two week period. i don't mind. just gives me time to get other things in order. i was invited to move to atlanta and i would go if i could convince a certain someone to make that move with me. the thing about it is that it's not who you think it is. speaking of moving, the co-parent moved to the bama for a few months. said he was going to get some things in order. i was really hoping he would find some comfort there and work things out, but he didn't. maybe next time. i've been doing a lot of editing of my manuscript. i'm working on another new year for myself this coming friday. i don't know what i'm going to do. i'm sure the mr has something planned. i do know i'm going to kick it saturday with my twin. he asked me last month what i had planned because we haven't partied since our 30th birthday and he wants to do it big this year. i'm all for it. i already have my sitter lined up. great way to start my new year.
things with the mr have been kinda lemon lately. and by lemon, i mean sour. guess i am not good at recovering from betrayal. i thought i had changed, but i see i'm still the same old me i was before whenever i am betrayed. oh well. guess i wasn't meant to do the whole "making it official" thing anytime soon. i just want to wake up one morning knowing i'm ecstatic about my place in life and right now i'm not feeling that way. i need to get back to me.
a lot of the stuff i've done in the past seven years has to come to a cease in order for me to get back to me. i noticed i can't be there for others the way i have in the past. it doesn't pay to be someone's emergency contact when they can't return the favor when you need them. so now my 911 contact is me. i am the only person i can truly rely on.
i have to get back to the real world so i will try to write again (and more in depth) later.
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