another year older

with my birthday coming up, i realize i'm spent most of the last year making sure others are comfortable and not taken enough "ME TIME" so i'm going on a trip. my best friend is coming out here the week before my birthday and then the week after i'm going to escape from the madness. i changed my shift at work and my living arrangements and i think i just need a real break from it all. i was told that my destination depends on how much i want to spend but right about now, i may just send my boys away and stay at home to ensure i don't stay gone. because in all honesty, that's what i want to do. iowa is beckoning me to come back and right now if i go somewhere, i'll make sure i get comfortable enough to want to stay. so i guess the only thing for me to do at this point is decide if i want to stay or go. there is really not much holding me back. so for now, only time will tell.