july is not my month

i'm having the worst start to my month that you can ever think of. so far i've disassociated myself with someone i thought would be cool to hang out with, locked a friends car up for dang near two days, broken my phone (i think it was defective to begin with) and last but not least, i've managed to lose a lump sum of money. not going to say how i lost it. let's just say a poor investment. yeah. we'll stick with that story. this way i don't feel bad at all. all this and i didn't even bring up the fact we had to celebrate my Mother's 53rd birthday without her. so here i sit not even mid-month thinking i need to just get away. i mean get away from it all. i contemplated sending my boys to their Father but quickly changed my mind when he didn't show up after pouring out his heart to divulge his innermost feelings regarding me and the boys. we seem to have this soap opera going on. he professes undying love for me and i tell him it's not fair of him to do that. he asks what? i tell him i'm cool as is. HELP US!!!