...and i'm lost without you. what am i gonna do? -Aaliyah
i spent the first night of the year with my family and the late night sitting up talking to my dear friend. we were watching movies with my brother, niece, third, and Goldie but those peons desserted us and we ended up talking about my madcap adventures and former lifestyle. around three a.m. in the morning, he asked why i was so wired and suggested we "take a nap" for an hour because he was on-call later that day. although i was wide awake, sleep encapsulated my body once i laid my head on his chest. his large arms had a lot to do with it as well. i didn't even tense up when he commented about liking how we were positioned on the couch and how it reminded him of being married. it did make me think about how i no longer have a male bestie. i miss what i had with Jamel. i don't have that friend i can call baby and it not have a sexual undertone. so i'm now on a search to find him. i have candidates in mind. just gotta see who is willing to do it.
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