has it been a year already?

i'm up at a wicked hour debating as to whether i'm doing the right thing here. and by the right thing, i'm referring to my new relationship that i am starting on the 11th of this month. maybe i should hold off and go ahead and move away like i wanted to. this new start felt good at first. then again, when doesn't something new feel good? it doesn't always turn out good. but now i'm having second thoughts. then i tell myself i'm just doing like i always do and over-analyze the situation. it even got to a point earlier that i wanted to just call the whole thing off.  i told myself i was being crazy because this is just the new beginning i need to get me over the last disaster i called a job. and when i look at it that way, it all makes sense. so i now know it was just anxiety i was experiencing because i can't wait for monday to get here. out with the old, in with the new!!